obviously not... but you didnt believe me when i told you before you left... so no reason to now. you usually dont realize how important and valuable things are to you until you lose them... in most cases. all the little things go overlooked and unnoticed, then its all gonna hit you in the face and you're gonna be pissed that you werent careful earlier. and off i go rambling again... you'll see i guess
good luck to you though, i hope you'll get your mind straight before you lose everything.